Do you ever just feel... blah? Like things are happening all around you, and you could really care less. You aren't motivated in the slightest. It feels like you do the same thing day in and day out. I'm there baby!
Especially with the holidays being over, I am feeling the blahs even more. The tree and decorations have come down. The fridge and pantry have been purged of any "goodies". Our schedule is back to normal, what ever that is. I'm not sure if things will ever be considered normal for us because of the lifestyle we live. But things have settled down again and we are in somewhat of a routine. The problem is me. I am not motivated to jump start myself into getting my healthy life style back.
When I was pregnant I was so active. I ate healthy everyday. I craved veggies and fruits. I only gained 3 pounds my entire pregnancy. I was so proud of myself for sticking to it and staying healthy. Jackson was born and in the weeks that followed I quickly lost 35 pounds. It's safe to say I'm smaller now than I was before I got pregnant. Now with him at 3 months old, I'm finding myself at a plateau. I still desire to be a better me. To be healthy and active. But I'm so not in the mood. I'd so much rather take a nap than a walk in my free time. I'm still tired. I realize that this is our life now. My day is full of laundry and dishes, and taking care of a cranky teething infant, cleaning up after everyone and the messes they make, making dinner every night, and still trying to find some time left in the evening to spend with the hubby who wishes to do nothing but play on his computer after a day at work. All on a minimal amount of sleep. Time for myself is not even in the picture. Is it just that I expect to much out of myself? I know I'm not perfect. And I know life isn't perfect. But I was really hoping to have it all figured out by now. The truth is I don't. And I won't even claim to. I just do the best I can with what I have and go from there. I'm clearly not happy with myself. I want to be a better person. More relaxed. Healthier and more active. The only person that can change that is me.
After not having tv for 8 months here in Japan, Brandon hooked up the American satellite dish for me. I only get about 6 channels. But it's better than nothing right? I have been watching a lot of news and a lot of Oprah. Oprah is doing the best life this week. Everyday she does a different show on being the best you can be. Yesterday was a show on weight. I was surprised to know that Oprah suffers from thyroid disease as I do. The show was pretty motivating for me. Today the show was on health. Things we can all do to be healthier. Keeping our minds and bodies strong. For the rest of the week she is covering other subjects. I'm curious as to what else I will learn. Those of you interested should watch it. I am challenging myself to get in the groove and change my attitude toward my way of life. As I re-read this blog, I am already bored out of my mind. It's not much to read, so for that I'm sorry. But it's where I'm at today.
7 years ago
6 comments:
I can relate. I feel blah. Here I sit after midnight working on my pre-class assignments for my classes in Virginia, which I leave for in 3 days. I am so not motivated to get ready to go on this trip, let alone get the work done. I am now down to the last minute.
I have started making a plan to make a better me after we get back. Hopefully I can stick to it, but I want to be more active, get in a routine to keep the house in line, yet still have time for Mayah and Kyle and just some "me" time. It is rough, but I am determined! I also have a plan to eat healthier, so it was amusing to me that you were being inspired by Oprah to do some of the same things! I am excited to come home from VA and go grocery shopping and actually be ready to cook dinner for Kyle and keep the house clean! Hopefully I stay this motivated, but if not, I will start over on getting myself there. I want to be a good wife and mother, but it is hard when you are tired. I agree.
I actually started making a plan today (instead of doing my homework, lol). But I feel like I want to get out of the blahs and into really living my life on purpose.
I look forward to sitting down and having these chats in real life soon. :) I miss you.
Wow that was a book, sorry!
I know the feeling...been there. You'll fall into the blahs every once in a while, then snap out of it. I think its a way of recharging or something. I'm just coming out of it myself. Being a mommy is the best but overwhelming sometimes to take care of everyone elses needs. Just realize that its ok as long as you don't let it go on for to long =)
Hey sweetie. I have noticed over the MANY years the after a really exciting times like family visits, holidays, and other such events that I will have a time of the blahs. It is because you can't always stay on the mountain top or live life in the fast exciting time all the time. Start by reading more Bible early in the day. No TV or music on. Just you and God. After that all your priorties will fall into place. Hang in the sweetie. Love you bunches.
So sorry you are going through a rough time, I hope it felt good to blog about it. Us Mommies should blog about our icky days too, huh! We all have those hard times unfortunately. Praying for you!!
I can relate to your blahs. I've been there myself. My kids are older now so things are much easier but you still get the blahs from time to time.
As far as the healthier you part, I suggest that you get a workout buddy. I did this once when my daughter was a baby and got one of those workout strollers. It helped b/c I never had any motivation on my own and it was nice to get out and have someone to talk to everyday.
My family may be moving over there very soon so I'm checking out blogs to see some of what life is like in Japan. Take care.
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