Old and New

Over a year ago I wrote a post about where I was at in life. I read it recently, and feel like I am a different person, and I'm at a very different place in life. I have decided to re-post the older blog and then write below each statement how I feel I have changed over the course of the last year. Maybe this is for my own benefit over anything else, but feel free to read along.

Blog Titled: My life as I know it. Posted August of 2008
Things I'm learning about myself and about my life. Good and Bad. Some things I like. Some things I don't. But it's where I'm at right now.

-I hate being alone. And even more so hate being without Brandon.
~ I am now more comfortable then ever being alone. Maybe because I have to be so often. I will never enjoy being without Brandon.

-I love change, but am terrified of having to be outside of my comfort zone.
~I don't even think I have a "comfort zone" anymore. Most likely because I have lived outside of it for so long.

-The things I love most in life are what I fear losing the most. Turns out they aren't things at all.
~ This is still very relevant in my life.

-I am stronger than I thought.
~I know exactly how strong I am now, and just what I'm capable of doing.

-I don't like people as much as I used to. They disappoint me far to much for me to put any energy into them.
~I still feel like this, a lot more than I would like to.

-I am horrified at what American culture has become, yet I am still proud of where I come from.
~I am very patriotic, but still feel the same way about Americans today.

-Sometimes I think I am Super Wife. Could I get any better at it?
~ Not only am I Super Wife...I am now Super Mom....and yes, sometimes I amaze myself at how super I really am. ;o)

-I want people to change, but don't want to be the one to help them do it.
~I am more willing to help now a days, but get frustrated at the first sign of laziness.

-God really is in control.
~Amen

-I love to travel, but have decided that living in another country is not for me.
~I have come to the conclusion that home really is where the military sends us. Japan is my home. And some day my home could be in Texas or in Italy, and I am ok with it.

-Chocolate milk can always make a bad day good.
~Amen to that!

-I pick my nose way to much.
~Still do. I watched Dr. Oz one day and he said that it's dangerous to pick your nose, I was so bummed out, and tried not to do it. I think I made it a whole day and decided that it just wasn't worth it, I just had to pick it.

-I need to have my own life outside of being married, but don't want to. I'd rather just spend all my time with Brandon because it's comfortable. I can be me all the time.
~I am living the life. With and sometimes without the husband. It's all good to me!

-I need to learn not to organize everything. It takes the fun out of it.
~Still working on this. I need organization. But I am more than ok with my son making messes to fuel his curiosity and help his imagination grow.

-Painting my toes will always make me smile.
~Someone else painting them makes me smile even bigger!

-I'm sometimes honest to a fault.
~Still very true. I will always tell the truth.

-I am independent only when I have to be.
~Wow, not sure who that woman was....whoever she was, she hadn't taken care of a newborn baby in a foreign country by herself yet, and she certainly hadn't taken an 11 month old on an international traveling spree. Nothing makes you feel like you are independent more than being a mom.

-I'm capable of doing just about anything, including take care of myself. But I don't want to.
~ I am a champ at taking care of me and now everyone else, all day everyday. Bring it on!

-Immaturity is my biggest irritation. I can rarely tolerate people from the age of 15 to 24. There are a few exceptions, but not many.
~Still my biggest pet peeve. People that think they've got it all figured out and act like they are still in high school. Get over yourself.

-Moving to Japan was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. For more than one reason. It's still hard. But I'm so glad that I did it.
~I am sooo glad I did it. But it doesn't make it any easier.

-I am addicted to Starbuck's Bottled Frappuccinos. I drink one every morning, and even then I want another one.
~ I have cut this habit. I still love me some coffee, just not everyday, and lower in calories.

-I hate being pregnant, but can't wait to meet my son. I will be a much better mother than I am a pregnant woman.
~My son is Amazing! And all I want to do is be the best mom I can be. Pregnant Me will have to wait a few more years, I'm so not ready to do it again yet.

-I wish I could see myself like Brandon sees me. The way he looks at me sends me to the moon.
~I love that man! And Lord knows I'm still over the moon for him.

-I love the military, but don't like what we fight for anymore.
~ What do we fight for again? I think that most Americans don't even know.

-I never cried at weddings until I got married.
~Still true. Watched my friend Brittany get married this summer and cried like a baby while she recited her vows.

-I still get butterflies when Brandon smiles at me.
~Boy do I ever. We've been married for over 5 years now.

-Friends have their own life.
~Yes they do, and I am blessed to be a part of it.

-My brother is grown up and can make his own choices. But I still wish he would do what I tell him to.
~I have never felt more strongly about this than I do now.

-I am turned off by selfishness.
~In a big way. Especially now that I put my needs behind someone elses every day. But that's what being a mom is all about, right?!

-I have wanted to do a million different professions in my life. All are different and they change on a day to day basis. The only things that stay the same are that I want to be a good wife and mother.
~I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. But whatever it is, I am more than content with what I'm doing now, Being a Wife and Mother.

-Sad songs always play when I don't want them to.
~Very True. Always when I drop Brandon off on the pier and say goodbye and get back in the car.

-My parent's get cooler and cooler as I get older. I don't tell them enough how great they are.
~ I tell them more often now. But I'm pretty sure they are cooler now then they were when I wrote that.

-Brandon really is my other half and my best friend. I am amazed that God made him just for me sometimes, and what a good job he did. He's everything I ever wanted.
~Couldn't have said it better myself.

-I really could eat my Grandma Dot's orange salad every day until I died.
~I think of her when I eat it. I think of her everyday anyways, the orange salad is just icing on the cake.

-I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams, and am fully satisfied with my life. But I still want to be a better person.
~I am a better person since I last wrote that. I still want this for my life, I think everyone should.